12.16.14



   Today I am struggling with sadness. 

I am broken over sin. 

My dear friends we were in seminary with have separated. Their marriage is suffering the results of neglect and stress. 

This can't be the way it was supposed to happen. 

I just found out that someone I love deeply has cancer. She and her husband are positive, and facing Christ in this. 

I am sad, because sometimes the result of the fall, the human condition, seems to be getting the best of all of us. 

I don't know how Haiti is tied into this. These are The Haiti Journals, after all. 

I am discouraged. 

I want to quit every effort to make the world better because right now it feels impossible. 

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